love of mine some day you will die,
but i'll be close behind.
i'll follow you into the dark.

happy 20months. yes. a fabulous 20 months.

and what a beautiful day to end it on too right?

forgive the disconnected writings, im under the influence of a sleeping pill which is the first time ever i have taken it. and its working. it was for emergencies only. and i guess this counts as an emergency? hopefully i'll conk out till tomorrow night. though i wish i cld sleep forever and ever and ever, no im not going to overdose or anything like that, don't worry. though i wish there'll be something to make your sleep sweeter...

though the whole purpose of taking the pill was to help me fall asleep, so that i wldnt have to be emo and cry myself to bed hopelessly... i suddenly am afraid of going to sleep. im afraid of the dreams, the memories. im afraid of dreaming of you and suddenly waking up crying... but yet i want to sleep and sleep and sleep and never wake up. isn't that ironic?

im trying to focus but i can't i dont know if i should cry or sleep or be happy or cut myself.

i wish there was a medicine you could take to solve all your problems.

i don't know if its my heart or my head that is spinning. can someone please show me the way?

怎么你声音变得冷淡了

是你变了

是你变了