500 posts since 1st may 2004! lol. okay so lame. i haven't been updating much since last year anyway.

i just touched down today. had dinner, then drinking with joan at boat quay. its now 5am and i'm seriously crazy to still be awake. there are many things i need to do tomorrow. and i'm leaving again on thursday.

on a side note, check out http://www.plussixfive.com/ its a newswire/forum that was created by a few of my friends. shopping, fashion, lifestyle, events, its the place for you to be updated with the latest, and also to check out what others are into on the forum. :)

going to SFO with cindy baby next month. hopefully it'll be a time for me to relax, clear my thoughts and figure out what i'm gonna do next year too. soon it'll be christmas, then new year, then chinese new year and then suddenly we'll be halfway through 2009.

i don't know what to feel anymore. be it anger, pain, frustration, betrayal, lost, confusion, jealousy, sadness... i really don't know. maybe i'm just hoping. hoping that there'll be a complete turnaround, that somehow i can feel that kind of happiness again. now it feels like im just caught up in this web of lies, deceit & betrayal. i don't want to give up, but yet i don't know how things can continue on like this. i love you, i do, but its gonna take alot more than that.

我是不是你最疼爱的人

你为什么不说话

握住是你冰冷的手

动也不动让我好难过

我是不是你最疼爱的人

你为什么不说话

当我需要你的时候

你最心疼我把眼哭红