jade left for manchester on thursday night. spent most of the night resisting the tears, but in the end, before she walked through those glass doors, i couldn't hold them back any longer. didn't say much, a hug, tears, and quite an amusing nod.

was feeling pretty down that night... really wished that you could make me feel better... but you weren't there. its been a long time since i asked anyone to be there for me... the last seemed like a distant memory, crying in the patio, chicken rice, an ache that will never go away... and i was hoping... that perhaps just this once... but i learned to go through it alone.

i feel things have changed, perhaps i am losing you, or perhaps i already have.

lately been feeling quite down... moody... or as you call it, sian. its only because of the way you affect me, but i guess you do not realise that. i do not ask for much, i know i can't, but the long 6 weeks will be coming soon, and i thought that maybe, just maybe, you would try somehow to make these 2 remaining weeks as sweet as possible. but i learn not to expect, not to ask, cos with expectations come disappointments, the higher you hope, the harder you fall.

take things in your stride, enjoy what you have, make the moment last for as long as possible, and keep it in your heart forever.

i love you jade, i will miss you so. dinners at amk hub & bedok, random nonsense at your house, camwhoring, studying and other school related things which seem so long ago, clubbing clubbing clubbing, zouking zouking zouking, ohhh and madam wong's hahaha and you rescuing me from lame chinese pick up lines, shopping, bitching, crying on the phone to you, coming to visit me late in the night with ber when i was in the hospital, wine at fisherman's village, accompanying me when you really didn't have to, july06&june07, crying together outside your bedok shop and you coming to find me at yishun just for a little while, to hug me and tell me everything's gonna be okay and so many other memories... you've been my darling for the 3 years i've known you, (though the beginning wasn't that smooth ha and there were a few bumps along the way) and you leaving will definitely create this huge blank in my life! yes i know you'll be back eventually... but for now, i have lost a great friend. i'm sure Manchester holds many great things for you, new beginnings, a new path, and i know you'll do well, make us all proud :) come back for christmas ok? thank you for the times you've listened, the times you were there for me, the tears we shed together, the times you helped me through all the pain, you've been through all my ups and downs these past 3 years, a great deal has happened, but you never once walked away, though sometimes you lecture me and tell me not to be stupid, but you did it all because you cared. i'm glad that we became the friends we are and i thank god for someone like you. i love you always always always. :)

this picture's pretty old, shots from 2005-2006. but we look so happy! :)

and this was taken at the airport on the night she left. you can see her tear-filled eyes. :(