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Sunday, June 17, 2007
6:25 pm

and so many thoughts run through my mind... flashes... scenes... the things that happened. and i hate myself even more. only now i realise. only now i realise how much you feel. and i get angry with myself because no one has felt this way for me before. i wish i could make everything alright again. but i can't. i wish i could change things. but i can't. i wish i could hold you again. those tears. all those tears. yours. mine. in such a short period of time so many things have happened... and that's why i can't just say goodbye.

i repeat the same song over and over again... and i cry... and i play the same scene in my mind over and over again... and i ask myself why. you were my everything. and you still are. i wish i could hug you, hold your hand, look into your eyes and tell you i can make everything the same again. but i know i can't.

my head hurts... but my heart hurts even more. i feel so numb. so lost. what do you do when your whole world revolves around just one person and then that world just comes crashing down on you. how do you pick up the pieces. pretend that everything's fine when you know its not.

and i will follow you into the dark...



;i am afraid