FATTIE TREATS! TREATS FOR THE FATTIES. BOINK! says:
so sad.
FATTIE TREATS! TREATS FOR THE FATTIES. BOINK! says:
i think my display hotter than both of u combined
FATTIE TREATS! TREATS FOR THE FATTIES. BOINK! says:
she show cleavage somemore
FATTIE TREATS! TREATS FOR THE FATTIES. BOINK! says:
and has rosier cheeks than u
FATTIE TREATS! TREATS FOR THE FATTIES. BOINK! says:
and bigger biceps
&i've been secretly f a l li n g apart♥ +b la ck ros e17* says:
i know u prefer well-endowed girls
&i've been secretly f a l li n g apart♥ +b la ck ros e17* says:
its ok
&i've been secretly f a l li n g apart♥ +b la ck ros e17* says:
it doesnt affect me

rahmat is such a sweet bestie sometimes.

went out with my dad and my brother yesterday. my brother wanted to get his shoe from queensway. the adidas adizero. its fucking light. like non-existent. but i don't wear shoes. :) retail $149, bought for $110. then we went takashimaya to use the rest of my dad's vouchers, bought stuff from bengawan solo in B2. prawn rolls, love letters, kueh lapis, kueh bangkit, pineapple rolls. total $110. yum. so fattening too. hurr. shld have asked him to get Royce chocolate as well hehe. japanese make such good desserts.

i'm having coffee and kueh lapis now. i honestly don't know why im having coffee, its not like i'm trying to stay awake to do work or anything. but i suddenly had this mood for a rich cup of coffee plus something cake-ish. and its very seldom that i crave for cake/pastry kinda foods. like last night too! i sat in my patio, listening to sappy chinese songs and eating kueh lapis and smoking my Vogue cigarettes. blissful.

its valentine's day! yay! *pukes* the last "loving" valentine's day i had was in 2004, and that was with daren, my ex-girlfriend. only girls know how to be sweet. lolness. you broke your promises to me last year and this year yet again.

my date for today is nicole, we're going to walk around bugis, then i'm going to meet my other girlfriends - jade & cake for dinner, then perhaps off to balaclava first, then off to zouk! i got a table again, same place as last week. ANDREA - go mambo tonight la!!! there's mambo on saturday too leh! must go ok!

we're down to the last 2 days of school, and it really sucks to have chinese new year before exams. not that i'll be doing much visiting anyway, but it spoils the mood. my aunt asked me to go on a tour with her, she's leaving cny day 1, but i obviously can't go.

okay i've been blogging alot more recently hurrr. the past few months was like. only one post a month. i guess there wasn't much to say, or perhaps there was too much pain, things i could not express in words. berlinda says i seem fine now, some people say i look happier, perhaps i am, perhaps not.

i am lost now, and its not about love or whatever, its more about my future. to study? to work? which university? will i be accepted? if work, then work where? what path do i want to take? we will unofficially graduate soon, and applications have to be made. i regret not going to JC, as much as i hated the system, it would have definitely been a better choice. i could be in uni right now. oh well. i can't turn back time. there are choices that have to be made, sometimes the line between the wrong and the right choice is so fine, and you're not sure whether you're making the right decision. 10 years down the road, you'll look back and wonder if you did the right thing, and wonder what would have happened if you chose something else instead. right now, i regret not going to JC when i could have, it would have made my path to a law degree much easier, and i'm sure 10 years down the road, i'm going to be regretting not getting a law degree.

sometimes you just have to learn things the hard way.

but it's too late, baby,
now it's too late,
though we really did try to make it.
somethin' inside has died
and i can't hide and i just can't fake it.