i am depressed.

once again. im sitting in front of my computer. supposedly reviewing non-disclosure agreements. but my mind is elsewhere.

so.

its been a week.

i'm on the verge of crying again. i feel like shit.

i feel damn alone. and fucking left out.

thanks. don't feel like trying anymore. whatever. i was right. i will not cry. no. whatever whatever whatever. i will spare others the pain. but i thought. that at least. you. remember the last time i felt this way? when 3rd year first began and i was the only one not in the same class. when i told you how i felt. the promises? what you said? that i was your closest friend? that you would be there? you won't forget me? and things won't change no matter what? unfortunately I have to say they have.

i guess i won't bother anymore. don't always want to be the one messaging, calling, or whatever. i guess i've gotten used to it, if i don't message or call, i don't get any message at all. if i don't ask, i won't know. the feeling sucks. you know. of feeling unwanted, forgotten, not important, insignificant.

whatever. just whatever. i'm on the verge of crying, but i won't cry again. no.

forget i said anything. i'm just being emo, depressed, grumpy, whiny, petty and bitchy.