its a saturday night and im home doing nothing. well my sister did ask me to go Liquid Room, but i turned her down. i'm working early tomorrow morning. i stayed home last night as well, slept before 1am, the first time in weeks i've slept so early. the girls asked me to go Gotham Penthouse with them last night, but i turned them down too.

there was the Madmonks revival at clubHome on wednesday, and the Herstory Femme Quest at zouk on thursday. but i gave both a miss. ah those Madmonks days. that was like 2-3 years ago? hur. the underaged bungs and passives. #lesbianlove. all the codes. 17. 22. people ask me many times would i ever go back to being passive. well i honestly don't know. but i don't think so. it was a totally different lifestyle for me back then. it was hard because i could never be open to my parents about it. oh well. but do i regret it? definitely not. it was an experience i'll never forget, i had a chance to see a totally different world. and it was a different kind of love. and i'm glad that i had the chance. someone said i had the chance to experience the best of both worlds. i suppose its true. and i miss everyone i knew back then! the lesbian community was small that's for sure. winnie, marie, eunice, xiaoping, terry, etc etc etccccccc. all the erzis. mummys. ha.

the novelty of clubbing wore off a long time ago, even before i turned legal. underaged clubbing has its disadvantages i suppose. hur. after that, i preferred chilling, like at acid bar or indochine. clubbing was not about the alcohol or getting high, it was about hanging out with friends and just having a good time. which is why my favourite night will always be Mambo at zouk on wednesdays. because that's all about having fun. and you definitely don't need to be drunk to dance mambo. i never see the need to drink when clubbing, there was once me and berlinda swore not to drink alcohol the whole night. we cheated and had a sip. but we definitely weren't high or anywhere near drunk. recently i've been clubbing alot, whether it was MoS with berlinda and the guys on saturdays, or Zouk with the girls on wednesdays. after celebrating jade's birthday this past wednesday at zouk, i guess i've decided that enough is enough. there's a limit to everything, and i think i've gone overboard. there are many other factors involved, but i think i should slow down.

trying to get CPA and company law done. this upcoming week is going to be a busy one, with LAW Investiture being on friday. all LAW students are welcome to attend, it'll be held on friday 21st July 6-8pm at LT23. LAW Games is also coming up on 26th and 28th July, do take part! LAW Movie Night on 4th August! :)

and very soon, it'll be time for exams. and then SIP.

time really flies. and things change so fast.

maybe i'm just becoming paranoid. or maybe i always have been.

you're finally back from san francisco. a week is just too long.

i'm putting on weight. how depressing. after all the weight i've lost. haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. i got more pills already. i just need to start taking them again.

just my luck. superman. havoc. waraku restaurant. crystal jade. coffee bean. MoS. gucci. m.a.c. ben & jerry's. world cup finals.

Everything's falling, and I am included in that
Oh, how I try to be just okay
Yeah, but all I ever really wanted
was a little piece of you
Be Be Your Love - Rachael Yamagata

and in case you didn't know already, i've added in photos in my previous entry.

i am fucking worried. and only 2 people know why.