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Thursday, May 11, 2006
6:02 am

i can never erase from my mind what i saw tonight at zouk.

i wish i didn't see it.

you. her.

i wish i had been too drunk to even notice you sitting there.

you saying you will always love me and that will never change. and that you didn't cheat on me. and to just trust you. you asking me to fuck off and to leave you alone and that you'll tell me everything tomorrow. all those words. just so empty.

after all that i've done for you. after all the sacrifices i've made. the biggest i made was to ask my dad to help you get the job. you wouldn't even be in SIA now if i didn't ask my dad to help you. and you've never once shown your appreciation for anything i've done.

and yet, i still love you.

why?

i just don't want to think about it. i just don't want to. just don't want to know.



;i am afraid