honestly, where is this going, or is there even any direction. feeling a little lost, feeling a little forgotten.

wondering where i went wrong, wondering where it all went. wondering how things change so fast, how things can just go downhill so quickly.

wishing for more, but knowing there isn't any to be given.

as much as it's something i have to face, i rather not think about it, rather not have to deal with it. because its just too painful.

wondering if everything i've ever believed in was just a lie, or is just a lie.

i hardly meet the bf, simply because he doesn't want to, and well, you can't help but wonder eh. that, you know. you just wonder.

perhaps im just not up to standard.

or rather, its just double standards really.

nah, this isn't a bitchy post, i'm feeling too emo to bitch at the moment.

reading things i shouldn't have read, seen things i shouldn't have seen, heard things i shouldn't have heard. sometimes ignorance is bliss, simply because the truth hurts.

is it better to know too much, or know too little?

perhaps you were never mine to begin with.