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Saturday, January 21, 2006
6:48 pm

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

i don't feel like doing anything, going anywhere or seeing anyone. i just want to be alone.

i just feel like giving up. quitting. dropping out of school.

and i feel myself withering away.

do not lecture me, do not nag at me, do not say the things i've heard a thousand over times. don't pretend to understand if you don't.

i'm tired. tired of trying to be happy. tired of wishing that things would be better. tired of putting up a front. tiring of pretending to be someone i'm not.

i just want to run away, from everything, to a place where i can't be found.

i'm losing myself, losing everything i've known.

but if only i could just walk away. and leave it all behind.

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it any where
Away from here


and these lines are for you.

i would never be able to forgive myself.



;i am afraid