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tingshan © <33
Saturday, October 01, 2005
5:20 am

i'm trying. trying so hard. so hard not to let myself slip back into that dark hole. that downward slope. into oblivion. where everything just doesn't matter anymore. trying so hard not to lose a grip on my life. trying to cling on. trying to fit the pieces back to where they belong. but yet, everything just seems to get messier.

and i thought everything was complete again.

maybe i really should just take a long hiatus. away from everything.

disappear maybe. and never come back.

no one would notice.



;i am afraid