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tingshan © <33
Friday, August 12, 2005
3:16 pm

trying so hard not to let go, not to let myself slip back into that downward slope of self-destruction, where i just lose myself... and everything else in the process.

trying not to go down that same path again. where everything spins, and just seems to get worse and worse.

looking for a reason, that makes my life more meaningful. for me to smile again. to be happy again. to give me something to look forward to with each new day. to pick myself up again, to put all the pieces back together again.

i'm hoping its you. i really am.




to my dearest ctbah: sweetie, you have to decide what's worth it, and what's not. what will make you happy, and what won't. once you've made your choice, the rest will fall into place. i love youuu.



;i am afraid