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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
12:10 am

behind these hazel eyes.

i changed my mind. i regret everything. it was a total waste of time. nothing was worth it. everything was sheer utter bullshit.

i can't believe i was so fucking blind. blind really is the word.

i am in a fucking bitchy cranky foul mood. i had a nice bitchy msn conversation with mat bestie just now. i love my bestie.

maybe its just cause i'm pmsing.

whatever.

some people can be such bastards. some people suck as friends. some people just care too much about being popular than actually forming real friendships. some people suck up too much. some people are just so fucking superficial. some people are such liars. some people are only there for you when everything's smooth sailing, but the minute things get a bit shaky, they disappear. because real friends will always be your friends. no matter what. though they may hate everything that you do and disapprove, they'll always be your friend. i honestly question someone's sincerity when they can so easily just throw away a friendship like that. a close one too. its not about who's more popular or who's right, or who's more convenient, or who tells a better side of the story. its about who you really care about.

i don't even know why i bother so much, when you don't. i guess i only have myself to blame for how things have become, and how everything has deteoriated. but i cannot bring myself to believe that you can become someone so close to someone i don't even know anymore. i guess i was wrong about the so called 'friendship' we had. i never ever ever asked you to take sides, or to even take my side. never. i wouldn't ask you to give up one friendship for another. but i guess you already did that. for someone else. thank you for that.

and to that someone else. thank you too.

its amazing how people can't grow up. its amazing how people are still stuck in their childish immature rubbish, like as though they're in some popularity contest? bullshit. like seriously. just grow up. and get a life.

like i said. i'm in a bitchy mood.

legal comm skills2 assessment #1 client interviewing at 8am tmw. fuck.

and i hate you too.



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