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tingshan © <33
Thursday, January 20, 2005
4:44 pm

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby

i can't watch american idol 4. because the fucking tv is spoilt. everything is this house is spoilt. the tv is spoilt. the amplifier is spoilt. the oven is spoilt. my cupboard is spoilt. everything. argh. and i can't watch vcds on the computer either, becos this computer is slow and old. the speakers don't work too. because my idiotic father took away the new nice win xp lcd screen computer. why? i have no fucking idea. even though he nice new condo is full of nice new products and sony shit, with his nice new sony vaio laptop, but no, he has to take our computer. why? because he's a shithead. a selfish shithead who's unreasonable and incredibly idiotic. and why else is he doing this? because he's trying to spite us for siding our mother. but we can't help it can we? i mean, we can't help it if he's such a fucktard.

argh. today was the last day of tests. finally. hols.

but it ain't really hols considering that mbs, lsm, psycho and macroecons projects are due not long after cny.

hung out at tampines mall with rahmat bestie after tort test today. had brunch, then watched Elektra. its not as bad as movie critics make it out to be. its quite funky. and garner's a sexy bitch. (rahmat was OGLING AT HER ASS)

thanks mat. for being a great bestie. for listening. thanks for the chillout session today. and letting me vent. i'm sure you thoroughly enjoyed Elektra. or rather, watching jennifer garner. too bad she only appeared twice in her hot fiery red suit.

caught The Aviator with Jade yesterday. its long. but its not draggy. Leo is a great actor. deserved his golden globe. its a touching movie. and Kate Beckinsale was sexayyyeee. Before that, we were with winnie, fazi, nissa too. walking around. shopping. fagging at coffee bean. before that i was with cake. shopping too. bought two pairs of earrings. and another shirt from g2000. (i can't help it. i have button shirt fetishes. but not as much as last time. ha.)

i shouldn't let things get to me. but they do.

i just want to have a normal life. is that wrong?

but its impossible.

notice me, take my hand

sigh.

maria. thank you. :)

kenneth. thank you too. for listening to me vent. :) thank me for listening to you complain too! ha.

its just me. and my moodswings.

sometimes don't you just feel so small? so insignificant? that life is just so pointless. that everyday, you're doing the same thing. over and over. that its just a routine really.



;i am afraid