i am. so. extremely tired. sigh. i have to be in school at 9 tmw so i can print out the bloody law reports. and i still have not done the 3min presentation.

i'm getting my laptop soon. :) happy. i've talked about it. i've decided. i'm not going to go for tp bowling tryouts. i'm not going to pick up bowling competitively anymore. leisure time, maybe, but not competitive. firstly, i think i should spend the money somewhere else. equipment ain't cheap, and i don't think i'll be picking up bowling as a career. i guess i kinda am wasting the amount of money that's already been spent on it, but better than spending more right. anyway. looking back on my mg bowling team days, i think i lacked commitment. im not exactly a "sporty" person. yes bowling is a sport. :) i have moods when it comes to sports. if i just don't feel like it, well, i'll just not go for training, or i'll go and be so bored, and not put my heart into it. basically i'm just to lazy to pick up a sport competitively. it was a cool 3-4 yrs in sec school. but i think poly now will be more hectic with work and all, and i don't think i'll have spare time for training and that kinda stuff. i want to do well in my studies, and i don't think i can focus on both. besides, i haven't really trained in ages, and i think i've become to lazy to seriously start training again. and if i do join bowling, most probably after these 3yrs, i won't bowl anymore. so i rather stop now. and spend the money on something else. like photography or something. i've always loved photography. those black and white photos. the abstract ones. those that have these deep meaning. every picture tells a story. like a black n white photo. of a soldier. in the background. its blurred. and in the foreground. a small child. hurt. crying. lost. alone. you can just see the emotion. i love those kind of photos. oh well. i told my dad already. i'm gonna go round looking at cameras. :)

sometimes i wonder if i took the correct course. do i really see myself doing law in the future? be it a lawyer, public prosecutor, legal counsel or something like that, do i really want to do law? sometimes i question myself. and wonder if i made the right choice. is this really what i want to do? before choosing this course, i was deciding between this, visual comm or studying makeup at cosmoprof. but i decided to get a law dip first, because makeup and photography are risky career choices and usually the money's only in the US. so i thought i should do law dip first, to back me up, so if all else fails, i have something left to fall back on. sigh. now i wonder if i'm doing the right thing. i'm such a confused kid.

what digicam should i get? canon, casio, sony or pentax? hmm.