i am so so tired. i slept at like 5. and i woke up at about 8plus. have some work to do.

after school yesterday. went town to meet him. had dinner at crepes and cream. bumped into paul who later came to have dinner there too. after that. took neos. then. went zouk. it was a last minute decision. anyhows. bumped into quite a few pple. rhadhi, joven, calvin, eunice, danica, tenshi. in town. at zouk. saw janessa, xinlian, mia, zenna, joanne. it was nice seeing joanne after such a long time. she danced with me awhile when she couldn't find her borders colleagues. haha. saw a few of my mgs seniors. my sister came too later with her exmgclassmates. sat at winebar for awhile before going into zouk. all his usual gang was there. ken, ben, jem, diana, sara, bizhen, paul, geks, etc. mamboed at zouk. had a bourbon coke. and later a flaming lamborghini. 2for1 so had it with ken. it was nice and sweet. didn't feel high from it amazingly. like i felt damn hot for a few minutes. but other than that i was quite sane. i think drinking alot of bourbon alone can get me higher than this. anyhows. didn't really wanna get that high cause there's school today. near closing time, went phuture. it was crazy, packed as usual. after closing. met my sister. went back home.

my legs are aching. i'm damn tired. i have four hours with mr ferlin j. today. i really need to get my work done. he's one tutor you can't mess with. legal systems and methods. what's the difference between legal and moral. do research to find the position of the law in singapore on. blahblah.

i think i won't club anymore. i don't know. i look around. and my self-esteem goes down. i think clubbing is only meant for the prettiest sexiest slimmest hottest babes around. i take a step back. and wonder what the hell am i doing here i so do not belong.

i heard things i didn't want to hear.

i hate the word "chicks". its so degrading. men have no brains. they only have dicks. i think some don't even have both.

i'm being a bitch. and i don't care.

my group's topic. research on how the laws of singapore govern "having sex". and is the following issue legal/illegal and moral/immoral. "pre-marital sex". there was a topic on internet pornography. haha.

my heart is too fragile. it's been broken too many times before. i don't think i could take it being broken again.

winnie darling! i miss you too. school's tiring. yours will pick up next week! hehs. weekends must catch up alrites?

i'm tired. in every single way.

maybe she was right.

pain could be my only release.