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Thursday, June 03, 2004
4:07 am

its 4am! yay. well. continuation from previous entry. after paul/marc's house. went down to pocket bowl. my sister came down later. had supper at lagoon again. marc was a clever boy and had wanton mee this time. haha. roger, my sis, darl, and his parents were there too. darl had to leave first. we had the same things to eat as yesterdae. haha. the beef kway teow still closed! sob. anyway. after darl went off, my sis n roger decided to go walking around east coast. me n marc stayed. n chatted about nonsensical stuff. haha. anyways. after those two came back, went home. rahs.

[i stand accused of love in the first degree]

mambo song. haha. i was quite amused watching dear n paul n fren dance to all the mambo songs just now. haha. oh wells. :)

im in a strange mood now. im not sure whether im pissed or depressed or angry or what. sigh. strangggeee feeeeeelinggg. erms. sigh. ya. well. yeas. darling i hope ur feeling better ya. im here for you. i hope u know that. i hope u'll tell me stuff n how ur feeling and about you and ya. i wanna be part of ur life. i wanna know more about you, you know what i mean? i dunwan to be left out. i wanna share ur tears. ur pain. ur ups. ur downs. ur happiness. i wanna go thru life with you. yea. sigh. well. ya. sigh. okae. nvm. im controlling myself. there are somethings im like pissed at. but im controlling. im not going to explode. not going to get angry. ya. well. yea. must be understanding blahblahblah. okae. whatever. not going to be angry. not going to get upset. not going to be pissed off. not going to think about it. just ignore it. don't think about it. c'mom denise. everything's getting better already right? im sure everything will be fine. yup. you can do it. just change. stop being such a bitch. and everything will be fine yea? just stop picking on the small details and being so petty. then everything will be just fine.

its not just about that. sigh. i dunno how to explain anymore. i dunwan to stress you le. sigh. its about the small small small gestures. doesn't have to be the loving ones. its others. oh well. forget it. im tired.

sorry.



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