m1. 300plus. broke.

msged my father happy father's day. he replied saying thanks. msged him asking if he would go to my grandma's house to cut cake on sunday. but he didn't reply. heard from my mom that he transfered money for my birthday. so he did get my msg. and today he msged me happy birthday. well. i guess i do miss him in a sense. i know our last conversation was us quarrelling about money. and it was a bad way never to talk again. i think the last time i even saw him or talked to him was like near a year ago? wow. sigh. i wonder if things will ever be back to normal. but i guess not.

like i said. too stressed out about too many things. money. school. family. dunno what else. oh well.

was talking to ivan's mom yesterday. she really makes alot of sense. she said that no matter what. he's still your flesh and blood and he'll always be my father. told me i should ask him out or something. sigh. oh well. maybe. we'll see how. hanging out with dear n his family have sorta made me miss the family i used to have, the way things used to be. it reminds me of the way i used to talk to my father, when things were okay. it really makes me wish things were back to the way they used to be.

stayed over at dear's place last night. and at 12mn, he disappeared to the kitchen. his mom n lynette were there too. i should have suspected something. haha. then suddenly he comes out carrying a tub of haagen dazs ice cream. its cookies and cream! haha. and all three are singing happy birthday. haha. sooooo sweet. and no i didn't finish the whole tub in one night la!!! its in the freezer now. hehs. :) noven! technically u're the 4th person who wished me! haha. after counting him, his mom and his sister. haha. marie would be 5th. thank you everyone!

sometimes i feel i take 2nd place to everything in your life. i guess. its just me.