todae. cancelled all my unconfirmed plans. and met eunice in town. walked around. ate lunch. then walked around. then xiaoping n bessy came down. xp changed for work and left. bessy was meeting her fren for dinner. eunice was meeting her fren. i went to heeren to find winnie calvin lex puicheng etc.... wasnt in a very good so talked to winnie n calvin for awhile. wanted to drink alot that night so we went early to make full use of the free flow what. hahaha. had bourbon. dry. shiok. and sub zero blackcurrant. and and some fosters beer. and bourbon coke. and vodka 7up. was getting a bit high. so my frens got worried. and ended up calling her to come down. she called. i hung up on her. she decided to come down instead.

bessy came down. and i wldnt say we really talked. i was a bit high from that drinking. and im not used to speaking to someone like face to face so honestly. so basically i cried. i cried my heart out. i wanted to say so many things but i couldnt. wanted to hug you and say i love you. but i cldnt. i wanted to tell you how badly i wanted you. to tell you how much i've fallen. but i cldnt. sorry if ur mom got angry at you. sorry. sigh.

i haf alot of things i want to say. but im really really tired now. good nite.