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Saturday, May 08, 2004
4:08 pm

i realised that the ending of my previous entry was quite vulgar. but who cares.

im feeling quite muddled up right now. there's so many things i wanna say. but its all messy. im not sure how to start.

i don't feel part of your life. i don't feel like i'm someone important to you. i don't feel like i matter. i don't feel like this is a relationship. if you walk away now, and tell me to find someone better, then that's the worse thing you can ever do, becos i'll know that you don't care at all and you don't want to try or put in any effort. i can't totally blame you. like i said, it takes two hands to clap. its my fault too. i guess maybe im just too demanding. i expect too much. im too petty. too sensitive. too emotional. i guess i need to change too. its all about compromise isn't it? i'm willing to change. i'm willing to try. i'm willing to give this a chance. i'm willing to put in everything i have because i want to. because i love you. and i want to make this work. do you? alot of people keep telling me that this behaviour is unacceptable... some people say you can't expect so much from guys... you can't compare them with bungs. im defending you, saying its not your fault... prove it to me? prove that they're wrong? tell me something? anything? i'm not going to give up so easily... will you?

[everytime//britney spears]
Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby



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