yup. that's all.

has it ever occured to you that maybe i'm ignoring you? 2 bloody fucking missed calls? the last time i msged you was at like 9? you would think that you would be more worried and call like more than two times since its like already near 1am? oh ya sure. and one pathetic msg. try harder. i don't msg you since 9pm? and ur not even concerned at all? or worried? or it never occured to you i'm ignoring you? omg. and 4hours later you can go and sleep. just like that. or maybe you didn't even notice that it was four hours since i last msged you. in fact if i didn't msg you for a whole day i'm sure you wouldn't even notice. yup. i'm sure you wouldn't. cause you see. only when you're free than you msg me. yup. so if i didn't even msg you i bet you would be to BUSY to even notice. yup. whateverrrrrrrr. why the hell am i making excuses for you??? whateverrrrrrrrrr. argh. fuck. fuck. fuck. my new favourite word. fuck. aiyah. whatever. fuck. suah. fuck suah. suahhhhhhhh. damn it. fuck. fag. i want to fagggggg. dunno la. pple ask. why not comfortable with telling? is it cos he's leading a 2nd life? no la. he's just not comfortable la. why am i making excuses??!?!! why??!?!! fuck. WHATEVER. im crazy. just ignore me. im a bitch. just ignore me. im petty. just ignore me. im demanding. just ignore me. im possessive. just ignore me. whatever. whateevvverrrrr. im sick of asking. im sicking of being the one msging first. im sick of the one asking to go out first. im sick of always hearing oh im meeting so and so out with so and so oh you can come when i ask to meet. im sick and tired!!!!!!!!!! so ya so. its only been like 9days. ya exactly. isnt the beginning always the honeymoon period? and don't relationships only become like this after a long time? but its happening now already. right. whatever. fuck it. we've skipped the honeymoon period and progressed on to the drifted apart, stagnant, don't care period. congrats. we should get an award. cool. whatever. call me a petty little selfish demanding possessive bitch. i don't fucking care or fucking give a shit already. fuck. can't believe what a stupid little naive bitch i am. yup. everyone says dun put in too much. or u'll get hurt n be disappointed. everyone says u cant compare guys and girls. everyone says u can't expect so much from guys. well. i wish u would prove them wrong. but i guess i'll just have to keep on wishing right. yup. "i care even if i don't show it." well. actions speak louder than words. girls. need to be pampered. and reassured. its not that easy. u cant just keep saying it. u haf to show something. damn it.

oh ya. and did it ever occur to you that when i said i wanted to go out today, i was refering to going out with you? but nvm. its okay.

forget it. i should just go and sleep. i'm tired. just fuck it. i shld stop complaining already. whatever. bye.